Weakening Within

When the mobile rings
I’ll come off the internet,
I’ll stop reading shit,

I’ll stop day dreaming,
gazing out of the window,
chasing distractions,

when the mobile rings
I’ll ignore television,
snap out of slumber,

self-inflicted pain
burning through the heart and veins,
the price of defeat,

my head couldn’t win,
a battle lost to the heart
so I blame myself,

stripped of weaponry,
I return home mortified,
the power of looks,

you conquered this man
with effortless charm and style,
how strong your sweetness,

imprisoned I am,
separated from your voice,
confined in this flat,

when the mobile rings,
I’ll answer relieved and freed,
feigning indifference,

I won’t sound too pleased,
posing as a stable man,
weakening within.

– Lennie Bezwik


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About bezwik

Lennie Bezwik is an English poet and lyricist who lives in Spain. Before getting into poetry, Bezwik was part of the London based UK Hip Hop scene, writing songs, producing tracks and performing live rap. Over the last few years, Bezwik has done a lot of travelling, drinking and writing. Nowadays, he sneaks off to dingy little Spanish bars at night and writes poems in his notebook. His biggest inspirations are homelessness, unemployment, booze, love and being dreamy.

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