Telling Myself That I Don’t Really Care

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Telling myself that I don’t really care
when I’m out in the bar,
numbing the mind with bottles,

telling myself that I don’t really care,
when I’m laughing at
unfunny jokes among shadows,

when my smile is just a mask
to conceal the burn inside,
as my heartbeat fans the flames,
all my words defensive lies,

telling myself that I don’t really care
avoiding this fire until
it burns me to ashes.

– Lennie Bezwik

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About bezwik

Lennie Bezwik is an English poet and lyricist who lives in Spain. Before getting into poetry, Bezwik was part of the London based UK Hip Hop scene, writing songs, producing tracks and performing live rap. Over the last few years, Bezwik has done a lot of travelling, drinking and writing. Nowadays, he sneaks off to dingy little Spanish bars at night and writes poems in his notebook. His biggest inspirations are homelessness, unemployment, booze, love and being dreamy.

2 responses to “Telling Myself That I Don’t Really Care”

  1. slpmartin says :

    Made me think of Paul Dunbar’s message in the poem “We Wear the Mask”.

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