The Maddest Thing

maddest
the maddest thing
is that as we speak
and as I keep my cool,
remaining calm and
composed as if I’m
unaffected by your
presence as these
months continue
rolling on and on
and the seasons
change and the tide
rolls in and back out,
the maddest thing
is that you’ve got
no idea what I’ve
been feeling,
a struggle it’s been,
veiling these
sweet wounds,
this weakness,
a struggles it’s been
suffocating the
love-struck soul
inside me
gasping for air.

– Lennie Bezwik

Shaded

gaugin
blossoming tulips,
the river surface glowing,
weed smoke lingering,

women in dresses,
buds being born on green stems,
smiles returning,

chairs outside cafés,
endless blue above the trees,
birds tweeting love songs,

yet lonely I walk,
beneath my own dreary cloud,
contemplating you,

as spring emerges
and I can’t evade this shade
where I crave your love.

– Lennie Bezwik

Keypad

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ridiculous,
we wait
from distant ends
of the mobile
phone signal,

checking our
screens,
yearning for
that message
received
that makes the
heart flutter,

ridiculous,
we wait
and neither
of us send
a single word,

resisting surrender,
we equally
suffer.

– Lennie Bezwik

Resisting You

appletemptations
I fight your charm with
these bitter lines,

I cut my eye at
your sweet voice and
hold my chin up high,

doing good suppressing
the poison that
you inject into me,

perhaps you think I’m
sullen and hostile
or perhaps you see,

there’s love behind this
bitter frown and there’s
warmth behind these eyes,

there’s weakness beneath
these walls I wear and there’s
loneliness trying to hide,

as I battle against your
sweetness, you see this dark
part of me,

revealing itself in
defensive ways cos I’m
afraid of where I want be.

– Lennie Bezwik

Due Kiss

kir
a matter of time
only
until I press my lips
against yours,

I imagine it as
we speak
and get a little closer
each week,

flirtatious,
natural,
stern and
bleak,

I sense the kiss is
coming like the
coming of
summer

as the spring
teases
us with sunny
days

before the sky
goes
back to its
sullen ways,

confusing and
pleasing
the new born
flowers

but eventually I
feel
that all will
blossom,

my nights will
die
intense and
red

and mornings will
appear
golden and
bright,

your kiss
it seems
so far yet
near,

inevitable,
immeasurable
to have you
here.

– Lennie Bezwik

An Accident

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you burn me
without trying,
wound me
without knowing,

you speak to me
through the evening breeze,
sing to me
as the leaves rustle,

you touch me
whether desired or not,
an internal scar
that’ll never heal nor fade,

in an accident
I was pierced by you,
now I move with pain
that can’t be removed.

– Lennie Bezwik

Slipping Up

slipping up
forgive me for
trying too hard to

be the man I thought
you wanted,

watch me slip,
watch me fall,

see my weaknesses
reveal themselves

before your sad
alluring eyes

that I love
that calm me

that capture me
that kill me,

forever no mercy for
this clumsy knight

knocked from his
high horse,

bruised
on frozen soil,

humiliated by his own
mistakes,

I say the wrong things,
I make the wrong moves

in my foolish attempt to
get closer to you,

forgive me for
trying

falling
failing,

feeling defeated,
imprisoned in silence,

forgive me for
loving you,

I’m sorry
it happened.

– Lennie Bezwik

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